19, the mess.












Thursday, August 9

Saying sorry and blaming yourself, doesn't help.

So I'm on my own now. It's only been 3 weeks since but it had been for what seems like forever. Convincing myself with a pack of ugly words to stay strong and live life.
Throw away the lies, to the back of my head.
Pretend that empty promises are just for fun.

Ouch.

I know so many of you care out there I can't afford to be swinging like an uncontrolled pendulum it's terrible. I know I know I know. And I am so so grateful. :D

Celebrations were okay. Our item was nehnehneh! But thankyou for being so enthusiastic people of vj. :D

Where are you?
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me

Somebody said something today: Don't you realised everyone has moved on and have become so simple except for you?

Aw, yeah indeed it struck me.

It was such peace &joy sitting by the beach enjoying lunch with two of my favourite people and a wonderful tan.

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