I saw it coming &i just kept quiet and I still will. It's not true it's all fake. I don't like the vulneribility and I don't need it. I need to be rid of it this instance. I need to be normal and usual. Things will be okay right? Yes. :D ____________________________________
I'm trying very hard already. But it's still surfacing though I really don't want it to. I'm darn unhappy with my results and yes I know how badly I've done, even with quite some studying. Any idea how stupid I am here ?! I don't know what to do but to mob and just pity myself, then start over again after Pattaya, and speaking of Pattaya.
I'm really quite afraid of how things may turn out to be though it might just be a short 4 days. It's gonna make and break friendships. We're gonna prove to ourselves how hard we've worked in June holidays and the past few weeks. It's just one go and that's it. My heart throbs at the thought of competing in Thailand, with the Female chorus being the first to sing, with the A2s being the first to sing. Oh, my god. How much I've done for the altos, I don't think it's enough. And I'm panicking. I can only sit and hope that the intensive practices the next two days would help, just by a bit will do. It's a bloody competition and it means a lot to us. Noone said it was gonna be easy. And no one is allowed to be complacent, at all. We have to work towards it zomg this is terrifying. Two more days.
And then for some first time I'm keeping this to myself and I can only, again, sit and hope it's not going to come through oh goodness me. I have a life waiting for me man, oh man.
Tomorrow's the day for you.
And I wish you all the best. With all my heart.
The next two days of school is going to be tiring. Sad face.
Disappointed face. Because my expectations are too high.
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