I've never thought I actually could not live without you. You really didn't seem that significant y'knw. You'd always been some sort of a passing phase. But hell no, you're so not. I'm sorry I took so long to realise. Despite all the others said, I took a step forward I really decided to ignore, trust me. I was heading to where you were coming from. Slowly I realised your presence was needed in my life, but at that moment you could actually inch away. Accused me of everything else, left me baffled, hurting my friend without the slightest clue of you doing it. I felt sad. I started to understand how you became of such importance to me. Every single bit of advice which came from you; it was miraculous. You always helped me. You were always the one saving my day. The twenty minutes talk? I couldn't be more grateful I swear. But you just had to prove to me the opposite. And infuriate her. I don't know what you're doing about it.. I just. Hope you realise. I know it's not just him you really want, I think I know. And I know you care. And I think, I choose to believe you. All the not-replying my smses, all the appearing nonchalant and whatever shit, I don't really wanna chase after it anymore. But show it to me. Show it to her, please? Just a little time. Just a little bit more of your time. Prove it that it's worth the while, please? ____________________________________
<3, I'm sorry I haven't contacted you since I saw you in school on wednesday. I don't know how you're doing, I'm not having a good times either. But you haven't lost me. I'm right here. I hope you're hanging in there, and I wanna see you in school on the 25th. I'm gonna see you there, right? :D
Alright, alright, yes i can walk now. But with a terrible limp. It looks as though I just had a stroke.
I spent my whole weekend on Prison Break.
You know, I was thinking, if I could just spare a little of this space on hallucinating, imagining, reminiscing about the wonderful past, and not getting so emo, maybe it'll add a bit of life to this white page. Maybe by lying to myself, by dreaming that you'd hear this, I'd be a happier person. :D And I mean it.
26th May 2007, Saturday
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you :D
Exactly three years ago I worked on that cloth thing and the bottle of stars til 2am the previous night. Exactly one year ago I worked on the three page long story in the brown envelope til 3am, got it snail-mailed over and, :)
Well, uh, I've got this something I guess I'd never have the courage to give you.
Have a good night, world.