a sudden rush of melancholy had just overcome me. i was stil at my peak right before this moment, at ecp with wayne jialing and rayrin. we're missing someone, xianyong. where have you been! yeah, today was great. i had loads of fun, and i'll definitely remember how all these would come to an end, be it whether i stay in vj or go. it's been long since i went out with the triplets(minus xy) and jialing. i felt that kinda ecstacy i guess i was longing for. thanks for making my day x) ____________________________________
tomorrow, that's it. i will keep my fingers crossed. i swear i'd either be at vj or nowhere. for now, i guess i need these moments for myself. something bad keeps ringing in my head i swear. i am, OFFICIALLY WORRIED SICK.
can you feel my disappointment? to think that at one point of time i thought we could all be in the same school, but it's okay, it's your life, your choice :D
i thought to myself if i still had the chance to see you, you would ask me to listen to just so you know. it's okay even if you don't reply my smses cos at least you still read them. just hope i won't be much of a bother.
just so you know totally freakin reminds me of jingyu, and A14. remember the lit lesson? x)
just a few things.
and lastly, i will meet you guys, not tomorrow, but soon. i cannot, i just need time for myself. for everyone else. i doubt we would go separate ways, it sounds too harsh. yarh? give me some time. i am worried sick.
something which just comes along the way, which fits in perfectly would be of the best cure.
i needed those two smses so much, thankyou jiaming and jingjie. i love you guys!
i must be wrong, with such bloody high expectations of you.