these few days of jc life made me forget alot. forget alot of unhappiness which dawned on me these few months. i thought i was feeling much better. but ouch. i don't know again. i don't know whether it's me. yes i stil read your blog occassionally. and i'm glad you're doing alright. i mean i hope you are.. taking out all our letters to piece them together. we havent done that had we? but i believe it could only be my imagination. just like how i stil thought things would be alright if we both gave in and solved the whole thing properly. but then again, it's the fact and always would be, that things will not be the same, ever again. ____________________________________
save me.
i daren't say i stil need you anymore. it's just the loss. it's killing me.
well. and you. many things around me remind me of you. the guilt is haunting me. when i think back i just cringe. and it's bad. really bad.
been going out alot lately til nine plus ten.
firstday of choir was on wednesday. quite funny, yr2s acted as yr1s to trick the new yr1s. so disgusting la. but i thought mingming and yuting pulled it off quite well though.
wednesday a whole big gang of us went out - jialing wayne xianyong rayrin huping danny heli fran may daniel. went for dinner at mos and shopping at popular. nothing much.
today was supposed to be a mugging day but xianyong finally woke up from his mugger dream and decided that this was the first three months and we bloody hell shouldnt be mugging. righttt. so me rayrin xianyong and huping slacked at concourse and waited for wayne to end lessons. wayne joined us later, and went 'okay i need to mug.' what is this world coming to?!?! okay luckily fortunately, he decided that he didnt care about mugging and off we went to town :D on the bus, rayrin and wayne were freakin unglam! THEY WERE DOING MASS DANCE ON THE BUS. oh my. i would post the video here IF I COULD. we'll see. ha.
reached fareast and it was raining damn heavily. stupid triplets tricked me to the turkish icecream thingy. I KNOW OKAY! i just agreed to buy the icecream to entertain them ): how nice. then we went shopping and did some major shopping at muji, where jialing joined us.
took some damn freakin spastic and random and unglam photos at paragon, PARAGON, such a glam place. oh my.
settled for dinner at taka. where we had take-aways and sat around in a circle at some corner to eat. after dinner we had our usual nothing-to-do-then-sing christmas carols again. and cny's just around the corner.
speaking of cny, i'm finally finally finally seeing chelmin tim kim eric nicholas thomas AGAIN! :D
yep, reached home at about ten thirty, and am freakin tired now, after so many long days for the past week. especially after i'd done PE today, running to east coast and back. yeah this would turn normal after weeks i know. im so tempted to get a long term MC damnit.
okay im closing my eyes while typing this so i should go off to sleep now. will post the spastic photos over the weekends.
it's almost.
if only, i stil had you in my life, it'll be perfect.