it's 1st January 2007. it's so scary how time flies. i was just typing my reflection on 2005 a few days ago and now one year had past. every year brings different challenges, leaving different memories of people and incidents. this year was particularly.. emotionally draining. it was brought up freakin high, and smashed down time and again. i've lost many things this year. things i wouldnt even thought i would ever lose in my entire life. devastation was all i could think of. nothing could describe the void i was left with at the end of it all. karma, it may be? but then again, hopefully i changed for the better. ____________________________________
i feel.. lonely. typing this blog entry makes me reflect alot. many things i want to have it back, lika little kid who screams and shouts to get his way. yeah, thats me now. i want it all. but no, thats too greedy to live life, more would be taken away from me.
but then again, i have lovely friends and there's really nothing more i could ask for, cos i got more than enough. really.
people have to come and go. but this time i'm hanging on so tightly i wont let go. so much disagreement, conflicts, quarrels and fights which got no where each time, only to irritate you further, i am sorry. you are as good as part of my life. at least to me. i never knew anyone who could create wonders in my life before. i hope this year would be great for you, things would be difficult but, i believe in you, all the best!
4/c, my dear classmates. many a times there were conflicts and bad moods and big fights here and there within both our class and our clique. i definitely know things are different like before, during prelims. but i'm glad you guys stil accept me as who i am. thankyou liane, you're a great friend. no matter how you look at me now and how you wna treat me, i'l stil look at you the same way. yingwai, sheena, gwen, thanks for being so understanding through all these. you guys make me feel this world is worth living in. diana chan, our arguments and conflicts with me thought me alot too, got me really weary of myself as well. thanks alot, for your unglam moments for us to laugh at, im grateful to you for that. you colour our lives (: i will def miss you all. there! ya'll are on the right (:
BLG. fiona sophia kiat nellie carol felicia. a few months, it was really short. but it was freakin amazing we got so freakin close. there were so much doubts initially, unspoken conflicts here and there, made me really weary and afraid of it all. but everyone opened up, and here we are standing strong. i can't say i know you guys for ages alr, but i can say we've been through tons and seen the worst of it all. times at bishan library were freakin high. though it were studying times. you guys made it fun (:
instructors. 05. i mean outdoor adventure leaders 05/06. OAC. LTC. you guys know how huge the impact was on me. on all of us. :D how close we were at one point of time, depending so much on one another in sec 3. i would tear if i read my oac entry once again. i remember the kind of motivation and drive all of us had at that point of time, the enthusiasm in all of us. though it has all been toned down by alot, those memories are stil engraved in me. :D
prefects. black shoe gang! IT COMM, zhenluan sining biru sarah, leaders invest 06 :D induction ceremony with sher. making videos without sleeping/going for lessons/eating. staying in school til 9pm for a video, all the hardwork of videoing and putting it together, photo-impacting and sleeping over just to make sure work is done on time. i remember a super long entry on leaders invest :D it was damn touching! haha. wonderful cedar :D
and so i have graduated. im an ex cedarian!
i can't wait for jc orientation actually. and going back to cedar make me feel damn freakin old. but it's heartwarming to see teachers and juniors again :D i screamed when i saw han lao shi. i waved frantically at mrs chiaw, mrs foo and MRS LIM! woohoo. but i didnt see mrs chew ):
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this was how i spent my new yrs' eve eve, new yrs' eve and new yr day (:
on 30th dec, BLG sleepover @ sophia's.
the very synchronised CHEERS :D
bbq-ing with my PAPA :D
yup (: watched damn alot of shows, i can't remember, just know there was she's the man, wedding crashes, house of wax. EW. rachel and xiuqu joined us the next morning. RACHEL'S IN CALLIXTO TOO, AHHAHAH ((:
it was great. my parents came for the bbq too! AND I MARINATED CHICKENS (: woohoo. okay we had this really cute video of us cheers-ing for a better blg. HAHA. ((:
had a great night with them cluedo-ing away! so fun so fun. play until everyone almost dying, cos too tired to think and figure out who killed who in where using what. then! they started watching movies. then! me and kiat started watching HANA KIMI ((: HAHA i love that freakin show la STUPID FIONA. oh no i just realised i havent memorised the chao xi huan ni song )):
yeah, only slept from 7 to 10.
nellie, much love!
see you guys when i see you guys k? which will be soon.
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at night, i went over to dawn's to celebrate new year-cum-yuting's bday! (:
great dinner, it was so cosy and nice. haha then everyone started scattering around singing songs and playing cards. it was damn cool! everyone sang different songs and we were freakin clashing here and there but who cares! we were enjoying ourselves.
oliver wanting(xxx-star) and SPIDEY(xxx-star).
wanting, charlottle, belle, oliver (:
oliver dawn charlotte :)
jialing! dont be sad! (: HEH. danny on the piano.
wanting jialing, oh my she's damn SHY.
oliver and wanting, (CLASSIC :D)
belle and dawn! sorry but cedar rocks, no bimbos okay!
charlotte being herself as usual :D
ONE TWO THREE(kinda disappeared) FOUR (:
kenny charlotte oliver :)
kenny and charlotte(as usual), oliver, yizha, jialing, belle, wanting (:
ALL OF US (:
supposedly informal shot :D
celebrating yuting's bday! i love dawn's apple crumble, and the brownies were good :D
and finally, BIRTHDAY GIRL YUTING(:
then we had this amazing race for yuting around dawn's condo at 1am.
OH MY GOD i swear i was damn freaked out. we were initially supposed to scare yuting, thinking of loads of scares to do, lik popping out from a door, using charlotte's hair to act as a ghost, lying on the ground reaching out for her feet, ringing the bike's bells but there was no one at the bikes, etc. HA. damn fun, but damn scary. OLIVER kept scaring here and there, he was damn disgusting la! HAHAH. and i didnt think rayrin would do the same man, he seemed so innocent okay! cheat my feelings. danny was lik damn scary. and sindhu went around with hoods over her head, but in the end she was damn freaked out also. whoa, so we decided to stop.
went upstairs to countdown, and at the tick of 12, we sang joy to the world. super what the hell, but freakin fun. :D then we opened the windows and starting screaming (i mean singing) out to everyone else who was awake, o holy night, ding dong, etc. we waved to practically everyone who looked. we were HIGH man. our voices breakin like anything alr still singing away. MAD PEOPLE. :D
okay here, a few random pics in ikea the other time :)
on the bus there.
me jialing may wanting :D
xianyong wayne jialing (:
and finally, one random pic of carolling on 23rd :D
okay, cool!
cant wait to see you guys in choir.
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what a new year. 2007's gonna be hectic.
we can do it! :D
