this was suppsoed to be a tell-the-world-im-happy post. ____________________________________
but no.. you didnt comfort me for no reason, at least i thought.
i know you'll never see this but thanks.
here goes.
those words.. are so painful.
sorry.. i didnt mean it.
i'm sorry.. i know i promised you and all. i know i initiated it.
but if i really went out, i would have got killed.
you know that you guys mean alot to me don't you.
you know it.
please dont doubt me.
i cant tell whether you're joking or not. but even if you are, i want to tell you that i'm really very sorry. if i didn't cry that day, i will soon.
i know i disappointed you guys.
let you all down again and again.
and only know how to say sorry..
and you're not replying.
alright, you have the right to be mad at me, cos yeah i was in the wrong.
you being sarcastic really hurts..
don't, please. i know whatever i promise you guys now you all wont believe.
maybe, anymore.
i want to say you all mean too much to me to be neglected by me. and sorry if i messed up your lives a little more..
but just trust me this once will you?
you have been, these years..?
i.. really hope.
now i can't sleep tonight.
im not. im not okay.
i wont be.. till you reply. :(