____________________________________okay. so it's not that big an issue huh. okay then. it's not to YOU, fine.
but it is to me.
you said sorry no cure.
i realised.
but what can i do now?
nothing.
bloody nothing, and only to study and study and hold all this shit back until end of o's then settle it with you?! end of o's, heard that? it's a long way.
not that you do not know how much you mean to me dont you?!
i know you have so many other problems to settle and this is just a little part of your life and by posting this entry im just askin for trouble and make myself look pitiful and attract attention but NO.
i am doing this because i think things are just too wrong.
how long have you known me?
do you know me to be such a person, who doesnt care about this friendship?
and break promises whenever i feel like? you think i wanna break my promise also?!
and dont drag him into it.
he's not involved.
i have so much to tell you.
i have loads and loads to tell you.
but when can i start? where?
i guess..
not anywhere in the near future huh?
or not anymore?
you were the first one i told my results too.
you were the first to know many things in my life too as well.
oh well.. but maybe this insignificant event and just talking about throwing me aside for a while till end of o's and everything is really THAT insignificant to you, so much so that it's a small issue to you.
but please hear me.
it isnt to me.
and dont ask me things like what you want me to do and whatever.
im posting this because i want to let you know,
how much i treasure this friendship okay?