19, the mess.












Sunday, June 18

what dissapointment. what dejection. i kinda expected it, really. well it's always like that anyway. so whats the difference with another one? ha. i should just accept the fact and move on. i have things to look forward to. tuesday. please, don't let it be a disappointment. i'm pinning huge hopes ovr thr. just for the only thing i can look forward to next week. and maybe, gathering.

i miss mahjong already. mahjong kakis. ):
i found new cds in my cupboard, jj and leehom. wow, they're nice to listen to.
thank goodness.

i feel i'm becoming numb, i just have to rant things out here.
so it will be okay. i have two people keeping me company this morning. i should count myself lucky. well.. i think things have moved on so much. i think things are not like what you said anymore. so i should stop dreaming. this is SEC FOUR, reality. mugging year, thankyou. i need.. i dont know what i need. i just need.. books, tys. and i need a little.. of sth else.
chelmin. are you there? i wanna talk to you.

parents out at jb.
alone.

askin for perfection in this imperfect world?
what a fool, did i see you walk through that door?
now stop lying to me, stop those false promises, false impressions of yours.
i don't need such fabrication.
i don't need your giving and taking it all back all ovr agn.
i don't need your sudden disappearance.
perhaps it'll redeem my smile
then maybe i'll thank you then.
so for now, i'll wait okay?

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