it's sad. it's really sad. everything is gone. it's just for a moment. just one moment. then gone. why? i dont understand. pehaps there's someone else who understands me. but i dont wanna remind her of the past. it's no healthy. although yes, it had been great, lovely, wonderful memories. luckily, they are MY memories. at least, so. guess i shouldnt ask for more. maybe it's the end. as for the other, it's gone too. belle! at least they are memories. why like this? alright. but im happy they all look happy. they're all enjoying themselves. perhaps next year. but things wont be the same anymore. "you wont know." but it's obvious. it was clearly, shown. sorry. im being so pessimistic. but it aint showing the correct signs. it's all, wrong. therefore this conclusion. and another, i am just, contented that i once had it all. as for the last, im glad we had been there. no matter what happens, i'll still leave a place for them. dont know about the rest, you can say im naive, innocent, whatsoever, im not letting it go. ____________________________________
but you, are so cold.
it is totally heart-wrenching.
it's been long since i felt it though.