i look at others' entries. ____________________________________
PAST entries.
my juniors, my classmates, my fellow-leaders, etc.
well they sure do bring back memories.
i think i've been a bit detatched form reality
since i've been in contact with people like elvis yumin naima boon clep soo yuan vicki clara, etc.
and totally not seeing my juniors and leaders at all.
now that all those entries triggered my memory..
i think this week was really a wonderful break to me.
it was fun, and really fun.
i smiled alot (:
when i look back, actually alot of stuff made me really stressed.
i get involved in too many stuff..
i know too much.
im too kpo.
and it just seems very tiring, and really amazing how i actually could hang on.
hang on to life.
tolerate.
now that i look back, everything seems.. distant.
and this certain feeling that : i'm glad it's all over,
AND i can concentrate on studying for prelims now.
it's exactly this feeling.
is it bad? someone tell me.
i've dwelled enough on my various important people in my life, in past entries.
but somehow, it's all these which make me tired.
and confused.
and stressed.. and emotionally drained.
sounds familiar? hah, owner's phrase (:
is it supposed to be like this?
i think i should feel sorry.
but i think this is going too far, and nothing can pull it back.
and only this break kinda helped me up abit, saved me from my, tiring life.
what's more, i dont know how to face my exam papers when i get them back this monday.
i don't know how to go for choir as i havent for a really long time.
i don't know how to cope anymore.
i don't know how to keep up anymore.
luckily, i still know how to smile.
amazing creatures, who actually can make my life abit better (:
i really have to thank them a whole load.
elvis, clep, yuan, vicki, clara.
well but still, we have to look on the brightttter side.
things aint that bad.
right right? come on, SIX MORE MONTHS.
endure, endure.
(:
not that i want it to end quickly, but if you really think.
right now, what's there for me to cling on to?
what kinda memories?
i know it'll come back. but just.. not now.
i told everyone. four years is just right.
too little or too much aint good at all.
so.. i should just be satisfied, with me having 6 months left in cedar.
and i wouldnt want more,
cos these four years already given me the most i could ever wish for (: