life ah, it's really full of ups and downs. ____________________________________
it just got up in no time it pinned me straight down onto the ground i had to intention to defend it beacuse i didnt see it coming but it still put me down anyway.
i miss the times.
everyone knows how to say these four words but noone realise it's just a blank image in our minds. all i can do is to sit down and think about it. but for people liike me, i dont want to. i want it back and that's how stubborn i can get but i dont care.
the three years i had in cedar was wonderful. i shall put the bad times aside for the time being, or maybe forever. i want to remember all the nice things and never erase them away. i just want to be innocent and naive. that primary six girl i once was. the beautiful jigsaw pieces which vaguely make up my definition of BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES in my past.
wilful.
i am so.
okay time to come back.
if i can't have it i'll have to accept it. am i telling myself to do this? yeah i'll try. maybe it writes a different story in our hearts but i have to trust my friend. i have to trust that it is still there, it is never gone. i'll still give her my full support i'll still walk with her unknowingly i'll still be there. i'll still be novabelle like i once was and ever will be. everything we did for each other. everything shared, loved, cared, laughed, cried, smashed, shouted, screamed, quarrelled, hurt, believed, inspired by us, i still remember. i am mindful that she does not require such burdens at this point of time therefore i assure i know i will understand you. i know our hearts would share the same story.
i know we still care for each other.
simply to put it, even if you're freakin busy, you know that im always here.
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next is, im so glad, so happy, so wonderfully satisfied that i have this great friend of mine. silly girl, you already said i was soft. i cant do anything more. (:
i love love love love love love LOVE you two i mentioned in this entry.