19, the mess.












Friday, January 21

why is everyone like so sad? it seems like how it was for me last year. everyone's just going through the same stuff lah. and i hope they'll be alright. and i hope i wont turn out like this again. it hurts to see everyone so sad but you cant do anything.

well. elvis havenn reply me! hurhur. what did she say aar? so mean. haha.
this holiday is boring. i slept at 8pm and woke up at 8am. then went ta buy breakfast. then watched some uh, hongkong show. then my mum was like using my room so i couldnt do any work. now that im online, it's hard ta get me off this chair. damnit lars. still got so much to study. so much homework to do. yeah i wished i could go to clara's house ta swim and do some stuffs. but i cant lah. when there's like 4 tests next week
i already screwed up my amaths test on thursday. wth. cant afford ta screw up anymore. after a few nights of studying; i was sick of it alr lar. what else could i do? nowadays noone ta sms also. and thats why i couldnt stand it anymore. i really din know what ta do lar. so i ended up sleeping so early last night. (x

this year is all about studying lar. haha. im trying to not study so much. but once i let go i'll nv be able to find it again.
ohh man. my entry is so luan. i know. ahha. and my mum is experiencing some kinda crisis now. how now?! if things go on like this i'll also die soon lah. haha.

oh. i cant stand it. im so shibai. i cant even play a piano piece properly. wth?! i just need time to practise. but i cant even find time. now it's not like i always go online and neglect ma piano. i dunno whats wrong. i want to do well in my last piano exam.

scgs investiture. omg! the item rocked. ahahs. the head prefect was so cute in her pyjamas. and the pcs were alll soooo cuteeeee. ask sher! hahaha.

shhhhh. my mum's calling again. argh.
from monday on im gonna have my 5hour sleep everyday again. i have been sleeping during lit unseen lessons. and now even bio. i am so deadd. how ta concentrate?
someone talk to me;
im dying!
well at least im going tuition tomorrow.
oh. if you've read everything. thanks. haha

i can't stand it alr. i thought it was not going ta happen again. but not anymoree. it's not like the past anymore. and it's nver gonna be. right?

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