19, the mess.












Friday, November 19

like needless to say.
we had a tearyy night.
olinda i'll miss you.
but i know you'll be back. you will! i love you! haha

well. jessica cheryl and ALOT of ppl including curtain they all cried. including me.
in the studio, at the reception, after oli left the reception, on the way home and in the bathroom. haha.
cry cry cry. but it's good for health lah.
EVERYONE was practically tearing. omg. wherr is oli?!
when they announced sly, i threw the sign down. we were like speechless. like WHATEVERRRRR.

at the reception. was pretty cool lah. get to stand next to leandra and oli.
den giving them stuffs to sign
stand therr until ppl managed to squeeze thru.
so i kana push out. but duh johann as still there.

oh yess. i will miss everything.
i will miss the gathering at tp before the shows.
i will miss the waiting at reception for the show to start.
i will miss the gatherings with cynthia and johann.
i will miss cynthia and johann's crap. oei!! LOL
omg.
i will miss screaming for oli.
i will miss holding the signs for oli.
i will miss oli. (:

i cried for all theseeee.
haha kinda dumb. i cannot stand it. sorry lah.
got a pic of us smiling slightly-tearing on next week's 8days.
got a pic of us on tmr's 'today' i guess
got interview on oli on one of the chinese programs.

im not gonna visit the forum anymoree. except for tribute posts.
i guess.
not the web. not look at the photos.
it'll just remind me of everything.
i'll just..... cry.
that's me lah.

this whole journey.
oli had one. we had one too.
well it's gonna be the most memorable!
i love all these.
all good things come to an end.
i know she'll be out sooner or later.
just how long i take to accept it.
im slow. after a few hours then it takes effect. hahh.
anyway yes.
shd haf expected.
just cant stand the way gurmit announces everything and all.......
make me cry and shout at the same time.

i love oli.

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